H&A

-about 1987 my Grandfather George Ager in the garage gave me an old Pocketknife. With on it designs of American Indians

-set up by him I heartlessly or carelessly threw it in the garage Rubbish Bag. Not putting thought in to it or I wouldn't have

-maybe meaning with that

-throw out Freddy Krueger. The film character with nightmare powers and claws on one glove like the Pocketknife. For decades I occasionally but not often while asleep. Have to struggle over and over to wake up. Having to keep trying to shake myself. Each time seeing like distorted image of being elsewhere. And of them 2 dreams Freddy Krueger was in them

-throw out Les Hill. The idea the Home and Away actor. In a Woman's magazine my Mother brought down on a visit in 1994 was naked on the beach his body standing naked against a female actress of the series. I came up with the idea the Home and Away character he played realized their lives were like a soap opera. And challenged a boy to a fight each with a blade to each try to cut off the other one's penis. He tried to distract the other teen telling him about his life. Later I realized the TV series maker's had set up the series with it. Les Hill / Lesbian Hell. His character Blake Dean. Blake / Broke / Break

-and throw out Black Bess. Blake Dean / Blackened. Years after the dream of her I found out Black Bess was the name of the horse of Highwayman / Hill Dick Turpin / Dick Turn In To

-I willed like throwing the Pocketknife in to the 'rubbish' to dump them. And future dreams like that just occured

-and will to dump any types of duel where I went against another male where one of us got pregnant and it was me

-my Mother brought down that Woman's magazine of something I thought of at High School 

-and dump any the time on a Cruise in 1991. At a stopover in Fiji I wanted to buy a sarong / island skirt. I went with a Taxi Driver. I got him to turn around when he asked me Do you want to spend some time with an 'Indian' girl? I wouldn't ever of